insatiable

thats the name of the bottle of wine im drinking...insatiable...its defined as "always wanting more: always needing more and impossible to satisfy"...literally, thats on the bottle...i agree with it sometimes, in fact my last post was somewhat of a happy yet unsatisfied nature...but i dont think its impossible.

the bigger question is how i ended up in this state of finishing off a bottle of wine at 1030 in the morning...well it got started last night and essentially it was the final result of missing my flight at 7am...i know better, not about missing flights but i knew better when booking it at 7am doesn't come easily for me, yet i still booked it...fortunately, and thanks to the military, and the discounts it can provide, i rebooked for 450pm this evening which fits my life schedule much better and in the end it only cost me $150 change fee plus i received a $25 credit as the flight was cheaper...go me and making things work out...it actually started at $700 more, moved down to $450 and eventually, well -$25...i think i fared well, pun totally intended.

so when i finally do make it to this airport of a tepee (and this is weird) i will be headed out to florida for what i call a quote "financial" conference...although skeptical, i've been convinced its worth my while either way and i ended up planning it because should it be a flop or not, doesnt matter its free, i will finally make it to florida to see mariah and as a bonus jason, who just arrived in country back from iraq last week, booked his flight yesterday to attend.

needless to say my head hurts right now...but it was totally worth it, headache and money both...i hit up an on again off again friend to just tell the story, get it off my chest, just to see what she thought...i had no life changing moment again, no difference will come of the conversation, except for mentally...there is a reason i blog and there is a reason people tell stories and for me, half the time its to air the dirty laundry even if its not so dirty...laundry however i was in the middle of before i literally passed out at 330am, only 1.5 hours before i was to leave for my flight...because sharing has that powerful affect (or is it effect) of releasing or say, relaxing the mind...and thanks for listening.