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i often need encouragement just as do the rest of us. perhaps its called motivation by some. others call it determination and still some give it the classical names of goals, dreams, hell even just good old plain and simple ideas. recently my whatever you call it has been a struggle to stay put for more than a few days, few weeks, few months, but not years thats just not reality. ive talked a little bit about it here on my blog but more on the outside real world social scene to friends and family and strangers in the bar. everyone has been very helpful, supportive for the most part. oh im talking about my trip. but this isnt about that so much as about keeping my feet planted long enough to earn a little cash, not enough, to make it happen more successfully. it will happen either way but as everyone knows money helps things along, if anything gives comfort to mothers their sons did not just take off on a trip half way around the world with only a couple thousand dollars. but if thats the case so be it. anyone who knows me knows im not one to save any money and my dad pretty much laughed at me when i gave him a figure. but so be it. they are all right. and right now im fighting the urge to buy a plane ticket somewhere this weekend, some random place for a random visit. however im not, i promised myself 2 seconds ago i wouldnt and instead im going to do what it also quite hard for me to do, read. thats right, i love a good book but i rarely find one. im not so much into fiction but i can enjoy it. more so i like reading adventure novels of the non-fiction type. so i have here in front of me 3. yes i decided if im gonna read one, i might as well read three. they're all travel related so its almost a little research while hoping to qualm my desire to take off to mexico early but it might also have the opposite affect as i loath over the pages with jealousy...