two sides

ive always been split between multiple groups, cliqs, etc...i know people in all walks of life i think but the big opposite that at my age of 23 appears to happen is the single vs. married and the differences seem to be slapping me in the face lately...in the past month, 3 people minimum i know got married...at least, of which i missed all the weddings...3 other people got engaged...at least, and who knows how many found a new toy to play with...and of course this being the digital information age or whatever they call it, i found out about all of the above on facebook or myspace or something like that...and as all this happens, i seem to find myself amongst people who are way off the oregon trail of marriage, some oxen drowned in the water, others lost hunting buffalo, many ran out of supplies, no one with all four wagon wheels...

so there is a point here somewhere and its two fold...congratulations to those who've found the love of their life, etc...if it makes you happy, great...happy is good...but as i say this i almost feel like im lying because i honestly feel that while some people were born and raised and also accept the idea of marriage in their early twenties and thats the life they want to live and will live it successfully and being friends ill accept it too and support and try to nurture the relationship til death do i part...i also wish people could have just a little more time to not grow up...to explore, not to test drive every car in the lot, thats not my direction...but to experience more of life before beginning such a long and difficult journey of raising a family, two and a half kids, dog named rover and cat named brutus, petey the parakeet and oscar the fish ...

now not all young marriages are obviously like this, thats just the norm or average, median or mean...and its not bad either, just in my book its not always ideal...i think my major hiccup with the whole thing is more about society's acceptance and expectance of the idea...but what the hell do i know...i could be married in a month, a year, ten or never...but i do know if it ever happens i will have fully lived the life i wanted to, unattached and i will fully live the life i want to, attached...

so again contrats to all, to those ready for the trip down marriage lane, to those who see the path and take the fork knowing eventually life will circle, and to those like paul who see a different way to spent 30, 50, 80 years of life...

life as i

know it or something like that...im not sure where to start because i dont know if id be able to stop...but i think i owe it to someone out in the blogosphere as they call it to update non-aquiantences with me life as it stands today...

keeping it short i hope, i went on a vacation finally...to an amazing country called brazil...ill leave it at im returning for 4 days to attend a job fair next month and ill be returning eventually for a longer period of time when the "big trip" hits...

the rest of life ends with work...somehow ive attempted to avoid responsibility and all that shit but it chases me down and i only have one way to escape it, "big trip"...but meanwhile my boss was fired at the end of the season leaving myself to pick up the slack until his replacement was found...depending upon how you look at it, fortunate or unfortunate...

i turned down the general manager position twice and the third time it was assumed id fill the role...i didnt argue because part of me enjoys the decision making, being the point man, taking the blame to reap the rewards, yet the other part says the same thing it said 6 months ago...you came here to goof of, have a good time, work alot but not alot...

so here's the deal and i don't make deals...i do it, to the best and better of my ability until my boss decides to put someone into the position for a long term period of time because ive already essentially given my 52 week notice...if it happens before then, i'd love to assume the role of assistant manager again and actually play the part of being only the assistant...

and if i continue in the current setting, the money makes the next part of my life easier, at least for a longer period of time...that life being my literal trip around the world...on foot, bus, taxi, train, plane...in order of central and south america, africa to europe to the eastern block to southeast asia and beyond...who knows how far ill make it but if i get half way ill be stoked...