sooner than expected the email from germany on my job application came...ends up i wont be going...of course the reason why my application wasnt selected wasnt given but it really doesnt matter although i have ideas on why...weird enough as it might seem im not too disappointed...obviously ive been thinking these days about the direction my life needs to take and oddly enough going back to germany didnt seem to fit...the job would have placed me in a random position within an army resort community, whether it be changing sheets or washing dishes...that part i didnt mind so much...the placement was for 13 months...this i was a little uneasy about, i dont want to commit the next year of my life to anything at the moment so i think this is all for the best...
so what do i do now that this decision was thankfully made for me...move to california...at least thats what i want to do...there are many enticing reasons to stay in the great state of colorado...after spending time up in the mountains this weekend im never unamazed how beautiful a state God created for us to enjoy here...but this is not where i think im supposed to be...right now...perhaps in a few months or few years ill come back, but my desire to live somewhere new hasnt disappeared and perhaps is even stronger now...so fairing any unforseeable circumstances, money, jobs, life im going to try to get out to the west coast in septemberish...but should i stay in this great state it will be here in the mountains, only time will tell but no major decisions until i return from costa rica.
Monday, July 24, 2006
unions and reunions
to start, i am a very proud brother...my sister has desired to be married for as long as i can remember, to raise a family with a loving and caring husband and saturday she took the first step in making this a realization. the wedding was held near breckenridge outside in an small amphitheatre at the edge of a river. the weather was perfect and everything went smoothly. standing outside for hours however left me sunburned but nothing too serious. im super happy for her and wish her the best of luck as she and Randy start a new life together...congratulations sis!
and the celebration brought many family into town id not seen in years. before the event i was actually looking forward to spending time with all extended my family which is something im not always fond of. i usually skip all the holidays but the weekend was quite enjoyable...past the first shock of my mountain man appearance, everyone wanted to know about germany and where im going next, where im living, etc. seems i found some jokes in about everything going on during the rehersal dinner making the table with myself and my dad's sisters the loudest and most obnoxious table eating spagetti and meatballs...
following the wedding and cleanup, i entertained my mom's brothers with a stroll through breckenridge where the 1st annual breck brewfest was taking place...id promised my uncle gene id introduce him to colorado microbrews years ago so we walked through the area but felt the price for entrance was for more beer than we needed...ending up at bubba gumps for happy hour, we ordered two new belgium brews, skinny dip and sunshine, the latter he approved of...my aunts spilled a few margs during the shake and pour process and in the end it was another time for laughs and story telling...
i thoroughly enjoyed myself the entire weekend as expected and now im tired and going to bed, im exhausted beyond healthy...
and the celebration brought many family into town id not seen in years. before the event i was actually looking forward to spending time with all extended my family which is something im not always fond of. i usually skip all the holidays but the weekend was quite enjoyable...past the first shock of my mountain man appearance, everyone wanted to know about germany and where im going next, where im living, etc. seems i found some jokes in about everything going on during the rehersal dinner making the table with myself and my dad's sisters the loudest and most obnoxious table eating spagetti and meatballs...
following the wedding and cleanup, i entertained my mom's brothers with a stroll through breckenridge where the 1st annual breck brewfest was taking place...id promised my uncle gene id introduce him to colorado microbrews years ago so we walked through the area but felt the price for entrance was for more beer than we needed...ending up at bubba gumps for happy hour, we ordered two new belgium brews, skinny dip and sunshine, the latter he approved of...my aunts spilled a few margs during the shake and pour process and in the end it was another time for laughs and story telling...
i thoroughly enjoyed myself the entire weekend as expected and now im tired and going to bed, im exhausted beyond healthy...
Monday, July 17, 2006
salary this and salery that
one of those other things people bring up while we are discussing my "situation" is that salary thing...ive been told that $60K a year is good for one persons living comfortably, another mentioned this or that person was making $70K...teachers bring in around $35K on average starting...the posters on the professors door boast averages in my sector of IT at around $86K with management going into the $SIX figure range...and you know what...i dont care. at least i think i dont. i mean, itd be nice. but its not a requirement for my employment.
what is...is more than 10 or 14 vacation days a year. i want a 4-day weekend at least once a month. perhaps 2-3 1-week vacations a year not to mention holidays of course. im not even asking for paid timeoff, again, nice benefit, but i just wanna be able to pickup and leave, moments notice, just like in college, just like my current/last job...yes im spoiled, i was spoiled, and i want to continue my spoils...and why not...im sure there is a job out there somewhere like that, ill wait, ive got time, i still have to go back to germany, but at least ive finally decided upon one requirement of my future career...
Sunday, July 16, 2006
no more ?s
please...okay so i dont mind telling everyone who asks that i really have no absolute plans in life at the moment...i have goals, but no plans...this is often misunderstood...i see plans as a semi-conjured up series of events to get to somewhere in life...goals are just things you'd like to accomplish...my problem as stated many a time before is failure to decide upon which goal goes in what order, whos on first, whats on second, and i dont know about third...
on the same note, i read the fort collins coloradoan today to find an article about "niche" travel books...which is odd because this has been on my mind as of lately...no really, it has...ive been thinking about how to travel and make money doing it, so the obvious notion of course is to write a book about it...this book thing is still on the mind, yes...
now the article talked about this new series of books coming out of portland that review your typical cities to travel to in the US, say San Fran or Chicago or Boston, wherever, doesnt matter...the niche is for us, young professionals, 20s, 30s who want something "beyond the basic hotel and popular restaurant they are looking for a different angle on why they tour a city", in particular we also want places to shop for little weird antique-type shit, but im not sure if thats exactly me or everyone...so why not write a travel book about how i travel, the random diners in chicago or the czech bar in stuttgart, the fish and chips place in london, the taco stand in mazatlan, etc...these fit the outta-the-way places the article talks about and would appeal to the same crowd perhaps...or not.
not because also like the article says, the internet is where everyone looks anyways...which i can do too, but i found out in reading the lonely planet book on costa rica, there is so much more to be found in reading about a place, only thing i didnt like was the book had "too" much and left me saying 3 weeks isnt enough time...but again, does this audience read books before traveling places...and if so, besides shopping, eating, boozing, and doing tourist type things does you, my audience of 20 somethings look for in a travel guide?
either way when it comes down to it, i cannot really finance this type of "work" endevour...writing the book part is easy, finding someone to design it almost as easy, perhaps finding a publisher more diffiicult, but actually funding the travel related expenses might be a little more difficult to take on...
on the same note, i read the fort collins coloradoan today to find an article about "niche" travel books...which is odd because this has been on my mind as of lately...no really, it has...ive been thinking about how to travel and make money doing it, so the obvious notion of course is to write a book about it...this book thing is still on the mind, yes...
now the article talked about this new series of books coming out of portland that review your typical cities to travel to in the US, say San Fran or Chicago or Boston, wherever, doesnt matter...the niche is for us, young professionals, 20s, 30s who want something "beyond the basic hotel and popular restaurant they are looking for a different angle on why they tour a city", in particular we also want places to shop for little weird antique-type shit, but im not sure if thats exactly me or everyone...so why not write a travel book about how i travel, the random diners in chicago or the czech bar in stuttgart, the fish and chips place in london, the taco stand in mazatlan, etc...these fit the outta-the-way places the article talks about and would appeal to the same crowd perhaps...or not.
not because also like the article says, the internet is where everyone looks anyways...which i can do too, but i found out in reading the lonely planet book on costa rica, there is so much more to be found in reading about a place, only thing i didnt like was the book had "too" much and left me saying 3 weeks isnt enough time...but again, does this audience read books before traveling places...and if so, besides shopping, eating, boozing, and doing tourist type things does you, my audience of 20 somethings look for in a travel guide?
either way when it comes down to it, i cannot really finance this type of "work" endevour...writing the book part is easy, finding someone to design it almost as easy, perhaps finding a publisher more diffiicult, but actually funding the travel related expenses might be a little more difficult to take on...
Sunday, July 09, 2006
zip stories, zillion photos
so i havent really written a real blog in a week or two? so ill just let the new pictures in the gallery tell the stories...enjoy!
Friday, July 07, 2006
upsidedown
or perhaps the word is reversed, opposite, contradictory...who knows...for the first time in my life i have no path, no direction, no idea where i might be in 6 months, 12 months, 5 years...i have looked forward to this day for years, i imagined the joy of not knowing what is next, what is in store for me...yet now that i am completely without any set plans in life, it doesn't feel like it should. i expected joy, excitement, etc. but all i have is nervousness and unrest, unease and conflict...this isnt me, im free, im unattached, im random, im spontaneous, why do i feel like this...why does not knowing my future plans feel like i thought it would...i guess my mind needs some idea of what im going to do for the next few months...i of course have options, in order they are back to germany, san diego, silverthorne or denver...but until ive taken just a small step in the direction of one of these i fear this feeling will not disapate...i suppose everyone requires at least a little bit of life planning and i, im not as exempt as i once thought i was...
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